It is 7:48AM and so far today has been truly incredible! Many people know I am a fitness instructor- and today is just one more of those days that makes me realize just how much I love what I do. Today, things have, once again, been put into proper perspective. I am constantly saying to my classes " Why do I have you do do 24 set of stairs.... why are we 15 minutes into a spinning class and completely wasted....why do I make you do this or that......Why? Because we CAN!" 4 months ago another instructor-and friend, I work with, Lisa Hardy, was hit by a suburban while riding her rode bike training for an upcoming race.... She was thrown 30 feet backward landing on the road, life-flighted, and lived to be an incredible inspiration to me, and many others. The sign outside of her room in the ICU read D-... she was, literally, on the edge of death. Well, today she came back to teach.... and she was amazing!
It is now Sunday, January 2nd...I wrote this post about a week and a half ago, but hadn't yet published it because I felt like there was more I needed to say...
Now that it is officially a "New Year", I am SO looking forward to it! I have done quite a bit of reflecting on the past year and.I have to admit...it definitely wasn't my best year- but nowhere near my worst either. I struggled a lot the past year in many areas of my life..... I feel like I am constantly sifting through, trying to come up with some big "plan" to make things different, to make things better.... to let my fairytale life return. And we all know it just doesn't work that way.
The first day Lisa came back to teach, one thing she said, that made a huge impact on me was, "It was my attitude and determination that got me back here" I love that. She had to work extremely hard to even be able to walk, and yet she was out there jogging, doing stairs and planning for her next marathon!! (Not to mention 4 months after nearly being killed!) Talk about dedication!
Why is it that when things are tough, I find myself automatically turning toward the negatives of the situation, rather than the positives? I HATE that about myself. It is far too easy for me to think I can do it all on my own when I already know that I can't- so then why do I do it? Why is it so hard for me to completely turn my whole trust over to my Father in Heaven- knowing that he knows best, that this test is not more than a mere moment..... ? And yet, how much do we take for granted? Pretty much everything...Our spouse, our children, our families, our home, our jobs...our faith, our friendships, our health..... do we really realize all that we have been blessed with?
Last month I was in the temple and a lady came and sat next to me.... out of nowhere really, there were many empty seats, she opened up her scriptures and turned right to this verse and told me I should read this... and then she walked away.
¶aFear thou not; for I with thee: be not dismayed; for I thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.
Let me just tell you how much I needed to hear this... This scripture was exactly what I needed at that exact moment in my life-
Along with many other instances over the past year, it has made me realize-once again... that I am ready to move forward. I am ready to really start living and loving my life, because before I know it- it will all be gone, and what a waste it would be to let it all just slip away. I never used to struggle with any of this, things always came so matter-of-fact and quite easy ..But now that has all changed, and because of that- it is the time to begin living, loving, trusting, believing, and realizing my true potential....I am ready- All it takes is the right attitude and little bit of determination.... right?
Life is AMAZING.....simple as that....let's try not to take one single moment for granted.....