"Our Beautiful Family"

Austin & Kim, Staley (11), Kamberlie (would be 9), Stockton (8 ),Taysen (5), Kenzlie (4)

Sunday, January 17, 2010


Well, let me just start off by telling you just how much I love my husband. He makes me laugh constantly! He is my hero who unconditionally loves me, protects me, and picks me up when I am broken. I am so glad that he has started adding his thoughts to our blog!! I love reading what he has to say, and I think his words are so powerful!

BUT.... I must confess, I am so embarrassed! Clarification: 1. I do not LOVE shower caps ( and I can't believe he told the world I did ) I just hate getting my hair wet when I am not washing it that day, that's all... girl thing :) (seriously so embarrassing!) 2. Staley is just like his mom AND DAD- it's a good thing, but yes, he has picked up my horrible, pull everything apart that I eat habit, and it is a HUGE pet peave of mine. :)

Now that is out of the way.... We have had a funny week this past week. My boys never cease to amaze me with the things they say, and funny things they do. Staley lost 2 teeth this week! He was so excited to put both his teeth and a spacer under his pillow to see what the tooth fairy might bring. Well, to make a long story short... a good 4-5 months or so ago, Staley and I were on our way home from "The Sharing Place" ( a grief group for children who have had a close family member die- and the greatest thing that has helped my boys!!) Anyway, for some random reason we were talking about adoption and I told Staley how someday his dad and I would love to adopt a baby. Well, Staley came home from school the next day telling me how he announced to his whole class how we were adopting a baby- tomorrow!! Needless to say we had to have another conversation about that... :) What does that have to do with Staley losing a tooth you ask? Well, so the day after he put his tooth under his pillow he woke up so excited to see if the tooth fairy left him any money- which she did- and he immediately ran to find his dad and hand him over his money saying, "Here Dad this is so you can buy a baby" not to mention he completely emptied out his piggy bank the night before to help his dad start saving up money to buy a baby.... random!?

Taysen found his nose this week, but more importantly his nostrils which he won't keep his finger out of- he thinks it is the funniest thing. Stockton started using scare tactics on me if he doesn't get absolutely everything he wants, the second he wants it.... "Okay well then I am not going to be in this family anymore if you don't give me.... I am going to go find a new mom..." ???
I LOVE my boys.. did I ever mention that? I truly love, love, love being a mom, and even though at times our house can be complete chaos, at the end of everyday I am so incredibly grateful for the opportunity Heavenly Father has given Austin and I to be parents. What a magnificent gift!

As Austin mentioned in his post, our new baby girl is going to be here by Tuesday! Like a day and a half away!! It is crazy, it is surreal, it is such a blessing and I am so incredibly scared! For baby number 5 you would think it would be no big deal right? Well, I think it is more than that. I think deep down I don't want to fail. I think deep down I want everything to be perfect. I think deep down I don't want to replace- but I want to have a second chance to prove that I can do it and that I can do it right and I can be the best mom that this little girl could ever have... silly you may say? Probably... but truthful. I am so scared that I won't measure up, that I will let her down, that I could do better- and I so need to get over that. I am so excited to have girl things back in the house, to have pink, to have another baby girl! Taysen was such a blessing for our family and came to us right when we needed him here. I think this little girl will too, help us heal. I want her to be her own- I don't want to compare or replace, but enjoy this new little spirit for who she is and for her role Heavenly Father intended her to be in our family!

By Kim


  1. Kim, you inspire me in so many ways. You are such a force in this world. Thank you for inviting me to your blog! Good luck tomorrow, I will be thinking of you all day.

  2. I'm so ready for her to get here!!! You are such a great sis. Love ya always. *

  3. Sorry if I comment too often...it is just hard to not thank you both -over and over- for sharing your thoughts and testimonies. The ways in which you lift others through your adversity...well, there really are no words.
    And...So excited for you new journey to begin! Wishing you all the best.
    Kim, you are so humble. This little girl is the absolute luckiest little cookie EVER.

  4. You are an amazing mom! you are and will always be good enough and the exact one right person in the world to be your kids mother. You have been a dream mother to your kids! Kamberlie will always be a huge part of my life and i will never forget her and i am so thankful that i will have that same opportunity with kenzlie :) thanks for being so great and letting us spend time with the kids!